It is constant in my right ear, the side of impact when the accident happened as I was driving, and on and off on the left ear. Most of the time it is a "dull roar" and I can tolerate it, but sometimes it is SO LOUD I can't hear anything else!

I have to absolutely share this!

In a previous thread I mentioned about my new morning routine and meditation. It's developed even further now: I got a meditation technique from the book on Kaballah I'm reading now where you scan a tarot card, reconstruct it in your mind and then deconstruct it again ... to go into total silence afterwards.

Now, this links in with this topic in that I will never have total silence in the WAKING moment, because of my tinitus. However, I decided to experiment with the condition and the results were odd, but understandable.

Doreen Virtue states in many of her books that Earth Angels (especially ETs) sometimes have a loud ringing in their ear and this is normally a result of input and messages from other realms (or the mothership!). She also suggests that we should start listening to it - tune in like a radio and we may even ask the Angels to bring the volume down a bit (which I've tried and it works.)

Now, after the tarot contemplation in the mornings, I try to go into silence. I only focus on the ringing in my ears, the blackness behind my eyelids and the feeling of my own aura. The very first day I did it I quickly fell into what sometimes appear to be the onset of sleep ... but you come up and go deep down and come up and deep down like when riding a boat on the ocean. One time when I came back up, the ringing had actually changed TONE and I could distinguish notes and rythm, albeit two notes. But it was for sure: the ringing I heard was definitely HIGH SPEED communication and by meditating you can perceive the music of the Universe!

My own Angel Chorus!

Basically what I do is, I start off with my "ritual" if you want to call it that where I first do some breathing exercises that I learnt on my Master Del Pe Healing course. This is followed by an invocation of my Guides, Angels, Faeries and all other Beings of Light that accompany me on my journey.

I then clear the room by drawing the Reiki Power Symbol three times in each corner. Finally I build an energy bubble through my hands, big enough to house me while I sit on my meditation chair, and I place the bubble on the chair.

I take my seat, shuffle the tarot deck and pick the topmost card and study it intensely by scanning it from the top left corner to top right, zig zagging and scanning a centimetre at a time.

When done, I put the deck down, close my eyes and slow my breathing. In my mind's eye I start rebuilding the card as accurately as I can in more or less the same way as I scanned it. When I reach the bottom of the card, I rescan backwards, but this time DECONSTRUCTING the card, i.e. erasing it. Once I reach the top... NOTHING! Focus on total emptiness, silence and quiet.

Now, here is where I started adding my own flavour: you are supposed to NOT focus, NOT think and NOT try anything. Just BE. To do that is difficult, but not impossible. Be attentive to your body, the back of your eyelids and the zing in your years. Try and keep it up for as long as your mind is able to.

When you are no longer able to hold it, take a deep breath, rub your face gently and your legs. Ground, and open your eyes.

Keep practicing. Don't give up. Some days you'll have strange experiences, and others you'll just come out of it with peace, calm and quite.