Hello Lea,
I am so glad to see that you have persevered and kept to what you believed in. I am sure you will be glad you did. All happens with a reason, we do not always know what the reason is, but the Goddess / God will show us when they know that we are ready.
I am still learning more and more every day, even though I have been interested in Wicca for years now, and am a practicing Wiccan. I am truely thankfull for this site myself, it is a pleasant place to be.
In love and light,
LunaRiver